Thank you to those of you who emailed me to say you were worried and missed me this past week! that means a lot to me! I have thought about posting a few times, but my life has been crazy since easter. home life and work life both are causing me huge amounts of stress!
I have been struggling with a family situation that I would love to be able to talk about here, but I just dont feel that it would be right to advertise to the whole internet. So let me just say that one of my children got into a little trouble and as a mama.. I am trying hard to remain positive on the outside, while on the inside I am angry, disappointed, frustrated and worried about the child.
I have tried to put it in Gods hands.. but I keep taking it back! I'm like that.. a bit of an indian giver. (Ummm that may be an inappropriate term these days.. is it Kai? if it is ... I take it back!!) Another of my children is in the process of moving and had a run in with the landlord that she is leaving, this too caused me a large amount of stress.. however that has resolved its self after I called the woman and the police and we let her know that she was breaking the law.
As for work.. cant really talk about that here either.. but the last few nights have not been good in one of the foster homes.. lots of problems.. and many phone calls to me after hours. some of the kids we work with are just plain pains in the butt. SERIOUS pains!
So anyways... I feel things have been spinning out of my control, Not that i'm a control freak or anything, I just dont like it! And Im struggling a little more then I normally would. HOwever.. I will be just fine.. yes I will.
Also always at this time of year.. I find a hundred things wrong with my house that I want fixed and I get irritated that they arent done when I want them done!! And the yard work.. which I m not good at overwhelms me too!
but Its all good.. I just need to make something cute.. and eat something choc in a large quantity! oh yes.. I would love to eat a couple dozen homemade choc chip or peanut butter cookies.. or maybe a whole apple pie! but first.. how about a huge plate of spagetti and garlic bread! or a trip to red robin for a huge bacon blue cheese burger with onion rings! oh my gosh! that sounds soooo good! or... a whole cheese steak sub.. with extra cheese onions and mushrooms! Or.. a country sweet chicken calzone! eiy yie yie!!! I better stop it now!
dont worry.. I wont eat anything like that! I wont do it.. I wont I wont I wont!
I actually lost 4 more pounds in the last couple weeks! yippee! so now I'm just under a 50 pound loss!!
OK.. girls.. sorry for the whinny post! and that I've not been keeping up this week.. I will get caught up with you all! I promise!
Gotta go.. I need to go figure out what to have for dinner.. I was really going to make spagetti, but now im thinking about peanut butter toast and hot choc! (about 10 pieces !!! LOL!)
have a sweet night all!
I'll be eating and playing with my dollies!