Friday, January 7, 2011
here i am, i'm fine..
Sorry to leave you all hanging on my last post and thank you for the kind comments and emails! I'm fine. was just ticked off and extremely frustrated that night, you know stupid stuff.. nothing out of the ordinary! just my life! Funny, sometimes I'm so grateful for my life the way it is, and other times, I hate it and wish that everything was different. but it is what it is.. and we make the best of what ever our situations are. Which for the most part I am pretty good at. anyways.. there are things that do really bother me that I have very little control over and that I cant fix or change myself. If I dwell on those things I can get myself worked up into quite a mix of anger and depression! Lucky for me, I can only stay in that spot for a very short time. So I have my pity party for a day and then move on!
so anyways.. Im fine.. fine fine.. yes.. just fine. Cant do anything about the other things that bother me.. unless maybe i had won the lottery the other night.. that would have surely helped! Yes.. money would solve some of my problems, no it would pretty much solve all of them!! but such is life.. such is my life..
so thank god its friday. I need the weekend so I can undo Christmas and start on Valentines! Before I was dreading the process.. its so much work, but now I'm looking forward to it. I wish I could stay home today but I cant. So thats pretty much how I will spend my weekend. putting away, cleaning and decorating for Valentines day! Then when thats finished I'll will start on valentine creating! I do need to get groceries.. I'll have to get them tonight, because truely I dont plan on leaving my house all weekend! OH.. and my other main goal for the weekend is to hold my baby! I havent seen him since last weekend!! ARHG!! the other day when i was struggling emotionally, I really wanted to stay home sick from work and have Bethany bring my baby over for the day! but.. I had to work!
OK.. this is getting long.. but i just didnt want to leave you all hanging!
huggles huggles huggles! love you all!